A NEW CHAPTER
🌷It’s been a month since I’ve written. The past few months have felt extremely overwhelming and uncertain. It felt like we were living in the gray. We were uncertain whether we were going to move to Austin, Texas. Then, there was a short possibility of moving to New Jersey. My mom was consistently sick (which scared/scares the hell out of me, because she’s just now going to the doctor.) We had to step in to get help for a dear family member, and we weren’t certain whether the help would be obtained and received (thankfully, it was).
Heather passed her medical clearance, and now we’re deep in legal, and about to start on psych. Getting a baby seems so far off, and also uncertain - and that really hurts my heart.
It has felt like there were a million balls in the air, and I had no idea where any were going to land.
Over the past month, we’ve gotten a few answers. The certainty is wonderful, but the emotions are extremely high. We are ready to start preparing Heather for a transfer, but we are beholden to the fertility clinic requirements and schedules. So, we wait.
As for Austin, Phil was officially promoted and offered a relocation package. We are fully committed to moving to Austin. I feel excited and scared and happy and sad and nervous and uncertain. Every feeling. Leaving behind my family and friends and a neighborhood I love is beyond difficult. I get choked up ever time I think about it. On the other hand, I know that if we didn’t take this risk, we would always wonder “what if.”
Phil and I just got back from Austin in an attempt to better grasp the city and figure out where we want to live. It all feels so momentous, and also, not real. In my mind, I want to know where we are going to live and get a baby baking, and then focus on enjoying time in Minnesota until we become officially Texas residents (and focus on figuring out how we incorporate my parents into Texas as well.)
Besides the whirlwind that our lives are, Evie officially starting walking on May 30th! My friend Jamie and her twin got to see it during a play date. We also learned that Evie is obsessed with water tables! 🌷
