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🌷Evie is a true miracle. The culmination of years and years and years of heartbreak, love, perseverance (and a lot of financial and emotional support from our family.)

In August, I started my quest to find another carrier, knowing it could take months, if not years. I was lucky enough to meet the most lovely human, Heather. Heather has three beautiful children, and a story to tell. She has always wanted to be a surrogate, but for various reasons, was not able to until now. The stars have aligned, and as of last Friday, when her medical records were cleared, we have officially begun telling people, we have our second carrier!

There have been other possibilities in the past - all of which did not work out for various reasons. When I think about it, Heather is the best person for us to take this journey with us. Truly kismet. 

It feels different this time. I have a lot of mixed emotions. I don't feel the desperation I did with getting Evie here. After all, our baby girl is more than enough on her own (although, she deserves a sibling.) I am overwhelmed with life - being a full time working mom with a husband that travels a lot, and the very real likelihood of a move to Texas, makes the idea of bringing another child into the fold a bit stressful. 

All this stress is minor in comparison to the thoughts and feelings I have, thinking of holidays with our children, watching them grow up together, growing our family, knowing that our children will both have a sibling to experience life with "Phil and Megan" and mom and dad. I've heard people say, "you never regret the children you have, only the ones you don't." And I already know this is true. 

There are also the nerves - it took three transfers to get Evie, and we have four genetically normal embryos. If after two transfers, we are not successful, I will do another round of IVF. Being almost forty, I am well aware of my diminishing fertility (although in my mind, I'm 30).

The next step is to get our finances in order and schedule the medical workup for Heather. 

It almost doesn't feel real, but thinking of the day I get to hold Evie's sibling feels like destiny. Seeing Evie hold her sibling will be absolute magic. After all, no two children have ever been more wanted or loved than these two.🌷